It’s been so long since I’ve felt The weight of another person. I wonder what your weight feels like. You’re so cute when you’re nervous, You smile a lot more and Mess up your hair when you stumble over a word. I haven’t fallen in so long, Haven’t let myself go. I finally have somewhere to fall and Just want to ask you: Would you like to fall with me?
Why does talking to you, Taking that first step toward you, Have to be so hard? I want to know you, The real you. I want to know if you sleep with socks on, And if you sing in the shower, And how you look when you Hear a song you haven’t heard in years. I want you to know all of my silly little quirks And to see some of yours to fall in love with. I want to ask you to share a coffee And not say something dumb about The weather or when the garbage goes out. In my mind I’ve asked you a million times To sit and get to love me So I can get to love you. In my mind you’ve called me And I’ve answered and I’ve finally gotten it right. I can tell you are something special Because every time I see you I can’t even remember my name Or how lonely I was Just before you walked in.
The minute you left These walls felt too close. Even the pictures felt wrong. I listen for your car door, your keys, your feet on the mat. Knowing that I’ll never hear them Makes this emptiness even bigger. I’m weak with wanting To reach you. Tell you. Show you. I’ve called for you everywhere Knowing you are already Too far to hear me. We are already worlds apart. I pace the floor, Hoping that every approaching car Is yours, coming to take me In your arms and tell me that you’ve Come home to me and Let’s make some coffee and Laugh at the world that’s full of people Who will never be as lucky as we are.
Two chai lattes, to go. The scarf I knit you and The mittens you gave me. Warming up under a blanket. Catching the warm days and Laying in the park to savor them. Crisp night skies with fall stars. Leaves in my hair, Dirt under your nails. Carving our initials into a pumpkin. Sharing a pocket so we can still hold hands. Hearty soups and wholesome breads. Remembering how your hair color Changes with the seasons. Forgetting the window open and Having to sleep closer.
